“Snow day?” Asks my 2 year old.
“Yes son, we are half way through January and we finally get less than half an inch of snow.”
I took him out before any one got a chance to step in it. The snow started falling on us and the other children woke up to look outside and see my sons footprints all over the brand new snow.
Yes finally, a snow day.
As I sit quietly in front of my icons I say a prayer that is all too familiar to me. Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me a sinner. The new live in seminary and the uncertain role I am going to be stepping into sets in.
My husband might become priest one day and be responsible for many people. What would my role be to those people as a priests wife? Life here in seminary seems like a learning ground not just for the seminarians but also the ones that are not fortunate enough to learn about the nous and the natures of Christ.
As I read different books now about modern women, priests wife’s in the church and their lives I realize that I am entering uncharted territory. People back in California are already treating me different. Gossip seems to travel across the coast. So as I sit here and look at my icons I truly say the Jesus prayer with all my heart.
Once again another chapter in my life is being written and it’s scary as well as exciting. Life here in seminary is not just for my husband but for me as well. A battlefield I must train in.
Lord have mercy indeed.
Often times it is a hard struggle for me to see God in the everyday mundane tasks of life. I often struggle with the thought that I am not really completing anything really that important. I mean really how holy can washing dishes be?
Today I got reminded of a story of a saint visiting two married women because God showed him that those women have reached a level of holiness that he himself has not reached. He wanted to learn from these women so he went out to find them and their secret was no more than completing normal household tasks. The story is told by St. Macarius the great and the women’s names are unknown to us.
It made me take a step back and realize that my battle right now does involve bedtimes and dishes and wonderful eczema infant issues, but that is ok. Stay at home moms struggles are often not noticed. I made the mistake in my mind to not appreciate being a mom.
Thank God for His mercy and quiet moments He gives us in the middle of the chaos to gently remind us of how important our lives really are.